Hello, old frenemy

I haven't felt like this since 2016. I went off the deep end in May of that year. A combination of poor sleep, post-college stress and a bad living situation coupled with mixing meds made me go out of my gourd. It was my first experience with true anxiety and OCD. I felt depersonalization for... Continue Reading →

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Summertime

Autumn is my favourite season. I usually joke that it's because I get energy from the death of the Earth--hard to believe I didn't go through a goth phase in my teens, isn't it? But I can't deny that I love the time of year. On my old blog that has been lost to time,... Continue Reading →

Another new leaf

Bit of a short post today. I started my job yesterday, and so far I think I'll enjoy it. The only thing is that it's a substantial decrease in pay from my last one. While I've changed my thinking patterns about money, I do recognize that I have a lot of things I have to... Continue Reading →

Work for it

A while back--when I had just stumbled upon the epiphany that changed my perspective on life--I blogged about making an effort. More specifically, I blogged about how I have a tendency to get a poor attitude when it anything I do requires effort. Today, the last three months of my personal efforts to find a... Continue Reading →

Too scared to succeed

I want to be known. I want to be among people who tell stories. When I was little, this manifested in this dream to be a published author. For twenty years, the dream grew like a bubble. Then, in March of this year, the bubble burst. Not because I had to take a dose of... Continue Reading →

Boogeyman

Trigger Warning: Sexual Abuse Nothing sends me into a tailspin quite like more new of prolific figures being accused of sexual assault. Part of me wants to know why that is. I don’t think it’s because I’m someone who particularly believes in justice. I’m too cynical for that. Lately I’ve been exploring the possibility of... Continue Reading →

Licked

Anthony Bourdain and Kate Spade. Two mega-icons in the space of pretty much a week. After the fact, a lot of people came out in support and grief, which is a tremendously good thing. A lot of these folks talked about mental health. But the thing I noticed in their talks of suicide prevention was... Continue Reading →

Loudspeaker

About fifty minutes from my therapy session. I've got a question to ask that's been nagging at me for the last several days. Getting an answer might be a peek into a box I never should have opened, but I need to know the truth. In fact, I need to start living the truth a... Continue Reading →

Write something new

I love writing. Writing is so important to me. But I’m doing some serious soul searching—and also having my precious ego hurt—I’ve made peace with a dark nugget of myself. I use having written something as an act of dominance. In the same way that some people resort to inappropriate humour or talking about all... Continue Reading →

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